Katie34's Death

Not many of us have escaped losing someone special in our lives and as we get older, the more likely we are to lose a special person in our lives.

I lost my mum when I was 21 after she had suffered with MS for at leasat 15 years. Almost 20 years on, I still miss her and wondered what she would of made of my life choices. Told me off for some of them I'm sure! I wonder how she would of been with my children, would she of been a good Nan.

She wasn't an easy woman to get on with and I've wondered over the years if it was because of the MS that made her difficult or if it was just the fact that she wasn't an easy woman to get on with. I suspect that she was just difficult!! I was too young to remember what she was like prior to the MS.

After 2 rounds of costly IVF treatment, my husband and I were very lucky and had 3 babies grow however as things turned from scary and exciting to a total nightmare, we lost one of our babies due to a twin abnormality; and then I gave birth at 26 weeks to two baby girls. After 10 weeks, one of our girls died.

It has got to be the worst thing I have ever gone through in my life. Burying your child is something that a parent should never ever have to do and it has changed me forever. There isn't a day that goes by when I don't think of my babies but they are in heaven.

None of us can escape it forever but having good people around you to help deal with the sadness and grief; is one way of getting through the pain.

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